time

its funny nowadays I simply find the time is running so so, slow.

previously I would agree with the quote of "so many things to do but so little time" but now not anymore. 

I find myself struggling with time, 

I find myself hoping for the time to run or fly fast again.

I find myself having issues with time,

I find myself waiting for the time to go is like waiting for the clock to tick but with no battery. 

the time seems not to go away. even if I told it to do so. 

and now that I think it is not funny any longer.

"dear Allah, I have already let out everything that is inside my heart to you. I have already shared with you what I really wish to have right now. I have also told you if time really does going so slow now, please please and please let me feel like it is not going to take forever to fly fast again. I really really really mean this. I have faith with the time and I give all my hope that time will make me a wiser person day by day. Allahumma Amin."

2016

Happy New Year to everyone, happy 2016.

Alhamdulillah ya Allah, the year of thousand fifteen has been the most amazing thing that ever happened to me. there were soooo many beautiful stories that have came across my life and im truly grateful for that. 

what more can i ask for, 

having a wonderful husband and in laws that look after me so well.

having the family that stays with me through every best and worst.

had the warmest yet the loveliest wedding ceremony that i have been dreaming for.

had a super great honeymoon trip with an amazing man.
received news that we are becoming parents soon (SURPRISE!)

together with the love of my life on his postgraduate graduation.

have had so far the happiest moments in my life allll in 2015.

and 2016 is witnessing a much more greater happiness, insyaAllah. 

Thank You letter to bestmen dan bridesmaids

#throwback dekat doodle yang saya lukis untuk bestmen dan bridesmaids 7 months ago. hehe. alhamdulillah, dah almost 7 bulan kahwin. tak sedar pun dah almost setahun rumahtangga saya dan suami. 

being sentimental right now, im gonna prepare a love letter to the maids. hehe. 

dearest our 14 bridesmaids and 12 bestmen,

here's our enourmous thank you to all of you (spreading the Thank You balloons up in the air. hehe) 

thanks guys, for being there during our Big Day. we wouldn't able to make it so gorgeously without your help. thanks for being a part of our unforgettable event in our lives. thanks so much for being there for us two.

we both shall never forget all your kind deeds; for- 

holding dulangs and flowers, 

sitting next to us both during our most-dreading-day in life; especially during the akad nikah and lafaz sakinah, 

comforting us with warm words during adrenaline rush- handling moments when there were so many people around, 

patting our backs to make the two of us calm and relax, 

wiping our cold sweats away,

bursting into happy tears once the ceremony went well (kena cakap thank untuk siapa2 yang sudi nangis masa hari kami berdua disatukan. tak semua orang mampu menangis untuk kita kan. hehe)

and the list goes on.

dan cepat cepatlah kahwin, semuanya. hehe. mari mari mari join kelab rumahtangga. next time, boleh join kelab ibu bapa juga. hihi. 

thank you sooo much, maids of honour. 

p/s: gotta find some photos of them-lovely bridesmaids and bestmen.  

hehee. untuk kami berdua is JFK airport new york, USA. waaah rindu sangat dekat New York city, terlalu banyak kenangan manis untuk dikenang. pembaca2 sekalian dekat mana pula? 

post wedding

i love you so much, you dearest wonderful husband. 

may we both be in this world with the reasons to be; the ones that feel grateful and thankful to Allah swt, ones that have purpose of devoting to Allah swt, ones that always have faith in Allah swt, and ones that love one another in the name of Allah swt.