100 truths about HS

so my husband and I were into this game just now. he was actually bored (sebab tak dapat tengok tv sebenarnya. haha) and me being a wonderful wife (yekkk) cuba la untuk entertain dia dengan game 100 truths About Us. we had sooo much fun

so the Blue colour represents him while Pink belongs to me.

1. full name. 

-katrina nur safra nor azman

-muhammad hazim ab fatah

2. zodiac sign

-capricorn

-capricorn

3. thing(s) you fear

-gelap, binatang tak berkaki, kena marah (husband is a great man, never ever marah)

-heights

4. thing(s) you love

-clothes, shoes, handbags

-phones, laptop, cars

5. your bestfriend(s)

-dearest husband

-katrina nur safra nor azman

6. last song(s) you listen to

-one call away- charlie puth

-one call away

7. how you feel right now.

-missing husband

-mixed

8. something you really, really want right now.

- husband lagi

-sayang and baby. but you are not a thing. so ermm, a house? 

9. current relationship status

-married. to the one and only, M H A F  

-MARRIED

10. meaning behind your URL

-its my name, no other meaning. 

-URL apa, mana ada website?

11. favourite movies. 

-all movies i've watched with dearest husband

-ermm berita TV3. zzz

12. favourite songs.

-all songs that we both shared with each other

-a lot. tapi tak tau tajuk

13. favourite bands.

-umm bands? dont have any specific but does it count if i sing and husband plays the guitar or whatever. we sure make a good band hahaaha

-band-ung. bandung

14. things that upset you.

-lapar and distant from husband

-perut lapar, perut masuk angin

15. things that make you happy.

-husband, child(ren) and husbandchildren 

-jumpa sayang and baby, makan makanan sayang masak, tidur

16. things that annoy you easily.

-somebody annoys me when im asleep, pms-ing, mood swings. eh ada banyak sangat benda boleh bagi annoyed. nak tulis lagi boleh? hehe

-wife sedih over small things (hehe), driving pergi kerja, bangun awal 

17. what you find attractive in other people.

-dont find anyone attractive except my dear hubby

-nothing

18. someone you miss.

-husband. ada depan mata pun rindu jugak. hehe

-wife

19. someone you love.

-husband 

-wife

20. favourite holiday(s)

-USA 2012, USA 2014, UK and Greece and Ireland 2014-2016. all trips with husband

-Crown Station Place

21. favourite animals.

-fav animals mestila KUCINGGGG and other bulu2 animal yang comel and tak garang. haha

-cats

22. a confession.

-i love you soooo muchhh suami. you are my greatest happiness. sayang sangat2

-i miss my wife so badly.

23. something that's currently worrying you.

-worry pasal baby and abang. please be with me all the time so we get to deliver baby HS together? 

-immigration

24. something that's constantly on your mind.

-my husband 

-immigration. again

25. future goals.

-being the greatest wife and mother. amin insyaAllah

-happy family

26. something you fantasise about.

-fantasise of living in this world like fairytales, where we have only Happiness and nothing to worry about. im being all Queen and married to my beloved King and having cute princes and princesses running around our kingdom. ok keep dreaming 

-ermmm, baby HS besar main bola bagi parents dia ferrari sorang sebijik

27. favourite stores.

-ALL CLOTHING STORES. shopping is inner happiness

-T.A.K

28 favourite food.

-fish n chips (for now). pregnancy is really something. hehe

-anything sayang masak

29. favourite blog(s)

-mesti la blog sendiri. haha

-katrinasafra.blogspot.com

30. what did you do yesterday.

-tidur, makan, email venmore, tengok tv, on the phone with dearest husband

-working

31. something you're talented at.

-talented at.... ummm nangis maybe? haha

-cooking like a chef.

32. an idea of a perfect date.

-doestn matter. a perfect date is when with husband. everything with him is PERFECT 

-candle light dinner jauh dari semua orang

33. celebrity crushes.

-takde crush dekat celebrity. 

-ermm tak kenal artis sangat

34. number of kids you want.

-nak 4 anak at least. amin, nanti mummy daddy bagi HS adik2 bila HS dah big boy sikit. okay sayang? 

-5 orang

35. something you're proud of.
-jadi isteri and (mummy soon)
-jadi suami sayang

36. who you tell everything to
-abang
-sayang

37. person you've been through the most with
-abang jugak
-sayang lagi

38. what was your first impression when first met with your partner
- "nampak baik je dia ni"
- "sombong"

39. nicest thing a person has ever said to you
-each time husband calls "sayang" (which means alll the time) haha
-handsomenya

40. sweetest thing a person ever done to you
-husband look after when down with fever, morning sickness, massage my back bila malam2 sakit pinggang sebab baby growing
-massage 

41. when did you realise that you were in love with your partner
-when we first had our conversation dekat Top of The Rock, New York
-masa sembang banyak2 dengan sayang dekat US dulu

42. first restaurant you had dinner with her/him
-thai restaurant dekat New Jersey, USA
-thai restaurant 

43. describe a person you love in one word
-loving
-mokmok

44. what you like about the person you love
-wonderful
-penyayang

45. his/ her characters
-penyayang, family man, tegas
-manja, sensitive, mengada. haha

46. thing(s) your partner likes
-gadgets
-dresses

47. favourite colour
-pastel colours. pink, peach
-red

48. favourite chocolate brand
-laderach swiss and godiva 
-godiva

48. fruits you eat
-peaches, peaches, peaches.
-tembikai

49. vegetables you eat
-dont eat vege except only brocolli
-timun masak kuah lemak colour kuning

50. coke or pepsi
-neither. dont drink carbonated
-neither

51. burger or wrap
-wrap
-burger

52. tea or coffee
-mesti la tea. all time favourite but coffee frappe is heaven-sent, especially campur chocolate. nyamms
-USA, coffee. UK, tea

53. day or night
-day. come on who can ever live on earth without seeing sunlight. not a polar bear so i dont hibernate
-day

54. between summer, winter, spring and autumn
-sshhhpringgg. blooming flowers everywhere and weather is at its peak nicest
-spring. sebab weather sedap2 

55. hot or cold
-cold. because i get super annoyed being all sweaty and panass
-cold. sebab malaysia panas

56. baking or cooking
-baking
-baking

57. dancing or singing
-singing
-neither

58. pencil or pen
-pencil
-pencil then pen

59. what colour is your toothbrush
-pink
-blue

60. any specific toothpaste brand
-never bother but usually using Colgate
-Colgate

61. hair colour
-brunette plus hitam
-brunette

62. eye colour
-dark brown
-light brown

63. height
-161cm
-170cm 

64. shoe size
-UK 5 europe 36
-UK 8 US 9

65. clothes size
-S and M
-S and M 

66. any music instrument(s)
-used to play piano. not anymore
-none

67. sports you're into
-used to swim. not anymore
-football 

68. do you wash your face using cleanser or simply tap water
-sometimes cleanser, usually tap water
-tap water saja

69. favourite day(s )in a week
-weekend(s)
-sabtu and ahad

70. emotion when you're hungry
-grumpy. it annoys me to the max when i get super hungry
-grumpy, tapi tak seteruk wife haha

71. emotion when you're just awake from sleep(s)
-cranky. sebab still tired and mamai
-okay je bangun pergi toilet

72. how do you spend your leisure time
-tidur and makan
-tidur

73. what do you think of a baby
-sooooo cuteeee
-cuteee

74. initials you would name your child(ren) and why
-HS for hazimsafra
-HS sebab hazimsafra

75. dream job
-kerja dengan suami
-kerja sendiri

76. if you could earn salary in your preferred currency, what would that be
-GBP Great Britain Pound
-USD United States Dollar

77. if you could choose a country you were to be born, which country would that be
-USA sebab nak ada dua nationalities
-USA

78. favourite clothing brand(s)
-Zara, Bershka, Forever 21
-Next

79. favourite gadget brand(s)
-Apple
-Apple

80. favourite football team
-Arsenal. i've been trained by husband. haha
-Arsenal

81. dream car(s)
-Lotus colour ocean blue. tapi tak ingat model
-Audi rs5

82. current craving(s)
-burger ramly jual tepi jalan dekat malaysia.
-laksa

83. love is....
-husbandchildren
-sayang

84. family is.....
-you, me and our baby
-us

85. married life is.....
-superrr wonderfulll
-besttt but challenging (as a husband's perspective- didik isteri, anak and handling little family)

86. money is......
-not everything
-not everything

87. working life is....
-i dont know, not kerja yet but id rather studying than working
-tiring. 

88. life as a student is.....
-hectic.
-best. 

89. being a woman is.....
-complicated. pms-ing and mood swings. you name it
-kenapa nak jadi perempuan? 

90. being a man is.....
-cool. tapi tak pernah terpikir nak jadi lelaki
-awesome

91. your definition of happiness
-having a wonderful husband and cute children by my side
-when seeing wife

92. your definition of sadness
-distant
-berjauhan

93. dirty and messiness, which one can you tolerate with?
-neither. but fine, messiness is one level up so i choose messiness
-messiness

94. some place you would like to visit
-USA
-USA

95. country you wish to settle down
-malaysia. but its nicer if malaysia tak panasss
-malaysia

96. how is everything going with your life
-fair
-fair

97. favourite quote
-live life to the fullest
-marriage is awesome

98. if you have a million dollar, what would you do with it
-bukak nursery for children and keep some for me and my little family
-invest, beli rumah and kereta

99  your one wish
-jadi isteri dan ibu yang terpaling baik
-jadi orang berguna dan suami penyayang

100. any question you'd like.

-takde soalan. dah tak sabar nak stop tulis semua jawapan ni penat typing

-ermm, abang handsome tak?

1st anniversary

"Ya Allah, Tuhan yang menyatukan dua hati. 

Engkau berikanlah hati kami perasaan kasih sayang antara satu sama lain sebagaimana engkau menyatukan nabi Muhammad dan Khadijah, nabi Yusuf dan Zulaikha, serta para nabi sekalian. Sesungguhnya engkau Tuhan maha Pemberi dan maha Penyayang." .

selamat ulangtahun perkahwinan, suami tercinta. terima kasih untuk setiap kasih sayang, semoga syurga buatmu kelak. 

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Alhamdulillah ya Allah, terima kasih atas umur setahun perkahwinan. semoga kasih sayang antara kami kekal hingga ke akhirnya. terima kasih dengan suami yang terbaik. terima kasih Tuhan, dengan setiap pemberian rezekiMu. semoga kami berdua akan tetap tabah dan cekal menghadapi kehidupan setiap hari. semoga kami berdua akan sentiasa istiqamah dalam mencari keredhaanMu. 

"abang, baby active je gerak dalam perut. macam tau je harini anniversary mummy daddy dia"

him: yeke. haha baby2. dia pulak yang excited

"haah kan. dia ingat anni kita tu hari special dia kot. padahal dia punya special date next month on his birth-date"

him: tu la pasal, dia tengah tendang lagi ke tu

"haah. dia nak celebrate sama2 jugak ni haha"

untuk abang sayang,

InsyaAllah bulan depan kita akan berjumpa dengan hadiah perkahwinan kita. pertama kali nak bertentang mata dan dengar suara anak kita menangis. walaupun tahun ni kita berdua tak mampu nak celebrate anniversary dengan candle light dinner atau bercuti ke mana2 dekat 5 star hotel, tapi kita berdua lebih excited dengan kehadiran anak. InsyaAllah, tahun depan kita celebrate anniversary betul2 ye. hehe. nanti sayang pikir cara untuk kita berdua cherish and reminisce every moment. tapi masa tu nanti baby HS pun ada sekali. takpe kot ada plus 1? sayang dapat bayangkan betapa excitednya baby HS tengok candle and cake nanti. mesti dia yang tak sabar nak tiup anniversary cake kita. tapi penuh air liur la nanti. hehee baby HS baru je 11 bulan masatu 

sayang bahagia sangat hidup dengan abang. abang terima setiap baik buruk dan cacat cela sayang. tak pernah pun abang ungkit atau abang pandang rendah dengan sayang. malah abang hargai dan abang tetap lindungi dan jaga sayang sebaik mungkin. abang sayangkan sayang sepenuh hati walaupun kebanyakan masa mungkin sayang yang banyak bersalah and nakal. hehe. biasa la, merajuk tu penting tau. tapi sayang tak pernah pun terpikir untuk susahkan hati abang. sayang merajuk dan buat2 sedih untuk tengok reaction dan respon abang saja. kadang2 tak larat nak merajuk lama2 sebab nak ketawa tengok kesungguhan abang untuk pujuk sayang. ketahuilah yang sayang tak pernah pun ada rasa marah dekat abang. sebab wallahi, abang tak pernah buat salah apa2 langsung dekat sayang. abang sempurna sangat di mata sayang. tapi satu je la sayang nak pesan, tak aci tau abang sekarang pun dah pandai nak ikut sayang merajuk. haha. kalau dua2 merajuk sama waktu, siapa nak pujuk kita berdua? abang jangan merajuk2, sebab sayang merajuk comel hihi. abang merajuk tak secomel sayang

tak akan bermakna hari sayang kalau bangun pagi tak nampak muka abang dan ada abang dekat sebelah. hari2 sayang penuh dengan lawak jenaka and kasih sayang dari abang. terima kasih abang. terima kasih sangat2 sebab selalu sayangkan sayang dan anak. tiada suami yang lebih baik dari abang, percayalah. abang terlalu baik dan terlalu sempurna. sifat sabar abang, sifat tanggungjawab abang. sifat penyayang dan memahami abang, sifat abang yang tak pernah jemu mendidik sayang, sifat abang yang sentiasa rendah diri dan sentiasa bersujud dekat Allah setiap hari, walaupun Allah kurniakan abang kesenangan dan kemudahan. sepanjang setahun sayang kahwin dengan abang; abang tak pernah tinggal solat, tak pernah buat sesuatu yang melalaikan dan abang baca Quran bila ada masa terluang, tak pernah abang riak dan takbur dengan Allah tapi abang semakin tundukkan diri denganNya. abang tak akan tahu betapa semua ini melembutkan dan menenangkan hati sayang. Allah saja yang tahu apa sayang rasa. kadang2 sampai tak termuat hati sayang untuk simpan rasa kasih and cinta terhadap abang. abang ajar sayang untuk cinta akan sesuatu kepada Allah

sayang berharap, anak2 kita akan jadi anak yang baik dan sempurna macam abang. sebab daddy diaorang adalah daddy yang terbaik. ampunkan sayang kalau sayang masih belum cukup sempurna untuk abang. sayang janji setiap hari sayang akan cuba belajar untuk abang. sepertimana abang ikhlas belajar sesuatu benda untuk sayang, sayang pun akan buat benda yang sama. supaya sayang pun mampu bahagiakan abang macam abang bahagiakan sayang sekarang. sayang nak cakap semua ni dekat abang tapi bila sayang cakap mungkin tak akan keluar semua benda ni. sayang kan pelupa. hehe. banyak urat2 dah masuk angin sepanjang mengandung ni

sayang tak tau nak cakap apa lagi dekat abang, Allah lebih tau segalanya. kalau la sayang boleh keluarkan hati sayang dan tunjuk dekat abang. mesti penuh dengan nama abang je hehe. so tahun ni kira excuse dulu ye celebrate anniversary. sayang happy sangat dapat fresh flowers dari abang. kalau abang tak bagi surprise pun sayang akan happy sangat jugak sebab your existence in my life is already enough. i would never ask for anything more. sayang nak wish abang all the best nanti jadi labour partner. abang kena kuat ok? supaya sayang pun kuat untuk bersalinkan baby nanti. sayang promise akan kuat demi abang dan anak kita. InsyaAllah

abang, thanks for a year of wonderful and happy marriage. sayang cinta abang sepenuh hati Lillahi Taala and I would never ever trade you and our child(ren) for anything. even a Gucci or Prada handbag wont do too. hehe. you and our child(ren) are my greatest achievements; and there wasn't a second I ever doubt our feelings for each other. 

I love you so so so, sooooooo muchhhh too ❤️❤️ only heaven knows how I feel about you. 

so Bismillahirrahmanirrahim, 

here's what I really want to say to you:

"to many many many more days and years to come- with you and our lil tot(s). insyaAllah."

ps. 

I couldnt say as much as I wanted because I think I have lost all the words. I was wordless and I did not realise the warm tears already running down through my cheeks.