welcome, 2017

may this year bring a greater health and happiness, greater wealth and wisdom, greater peace and prosperity, greater glee and glow, also a greater LOVE and laughter. 

Happy Christmas 2016

shout out to all, Hadif Sufian's wishing a Happy Christmas to everybody out there. may your homes be filled with joy and happiness! season's greetings to all.

Ho ho ho,
little Santa.

Pumpkin picking, Halloween 2016

Typically, when Halloween month is approaching; it marks a year coming to an end. Sounds a little pathetic, but welcoming a brand New Year is worth a while. My life has been so busy and filled with lots of things ever since Hadif came into our lives. I havent even realised where did all the time have flown. Now that I'm writing this entry about Halloween, it really made me wondered about the past months. What I could say at this moment is, 2016 went by ever so briefly. Is this for real? I'm entering 2017 soon. 

And I asked myself, what in the universe have I achieved this past (almost) one year? As I was about to be carried away into deep disappointment, suddenly I heard baby's voice. My attention was diverted by the babbling sound. It was Hadif's. FREEZE. And that moment awoken me. Flashback to all memories I had earlier in 2016, they were all about Hadif Sufian. I remembered carrying him to the lectures, talks, workshops and seminars. I even brought him into the exam hall and he was the one who was with me through the hard times, kicking from inside my belly. So, 2016 was indeed Hadif's year. 

I'd be kidding myself if I don't acknowledge that this year has passed so quickly because everything felt so content, I have all the people I love with me. My life feel complete with them. I have no right to feel regretful of 2016 because it all came back to my little baby, Hadif Sufian. I come to an agreement now that I could have not achieved anything at all in this year but for Hadif actually is the reason behind all my achievements. Not to forget, my dearest husband too. 

So, lets get back to the actual fundamental of this entry. It was on the Halloween Eve last week that my husband and I brought our little Moose to the pumpkin farm, near Warrington. The journey took only half hour by train ride from Liverpool. Been living for almost 5 years in the UK (for me) and almost 7 years abroad for my husband (because he was in United States before he furthered his studies in UK), we both actually never been to any pumpkin farm before. What a shamed, I know but it was all started when we held the Mother and Father title. Parenthood really kicking in. 

Spot Hadif in almost every photos trying to grab things in front of him. He was very eager to see everything around him and simply attracted to bright colours. He positively enjoyed the moment and had a great time there. He did not throw any tantrum or make fireworks in his diaper so I guess the trip was amazing, despite he only whined for food. Hadif dan makanan berpisah tiada. haha. It was very funny at that time because Hadif was having carrot puree. People walked by us, having assumption he was having the pumpkin puree and wondered where to get some for their tots. The day was filled with many photographs taken before we headed back home. It was very tiring indeed, walking in muddy farm. 

I really hope there are other outdoor activities that we could do together with Hadif, even if its in the winter months. Hopefully, the amount of snowfall at the end of this year won't stall any activities or make the cities paralysed. I wish I could offer my son as many exposure as I could, having the faith that would help him through his milestones. Typical mother's wish? Quite so, yes. I still don't know if currently I'm being the greatest mother on earth, I'm sure it is not possible but for Hadif's world it might be possible. I pray everything will turn out fine all the way through and may Hadif grow gloriously well to be a great and wise man, just like his Daddy.

I'm going to wrap up everything now since this entry is getting to the bottom line. Phewwwh, I really really really, took ages to finish just this one piece of writing. I missed writing everything here but sometimes I just dont fine the way to sit still and begin writing my thoughts. I will try to write more, not a promise but I will, trust me. So cheers to the next entry.

dah 2 bulan tak menulis. tak ada apa nak cakap dekat sini cuma nak kasitau, rindu nak tulis. hehe.

Hadif Sufian's Newborn Session

on hadif's 7th day seeing the world, he had his Newborn Photo Session by Katejade's Photography. held in Cheshire, journey was 40 minutes away from our home. masa pregnant 30 weeks lagi dah booked newborn session ni sebenarnya. safra dengan husband dah decide untuk setiap anak, kami berdua akan hire profesional photographer untuk ambik gambar masa baby. boleh simpan sebagai kenangan, sebab newborn-look ni sekejap je. bila baby dah gain weight, tak dapat nak tatap muka baby fresh macam dalam womb.

alhamdulillah, little hadif good boy sangat masa dekat studio. he cooperated well with everyone. hadif tidur je sepanjang shooting, cuma bangun nangis nak susu. hihi. 2 kali jugak budak kuat menyusu ni bangun mintak upah susu dalam masa 3 jam lebih. hadif memang exclusively breast-feeding, jadi memang semuanya mudah bila waktu feeding. tak susah2 nak bancuh susu dan prepare milk bottle bila travel ke mana2. semoga ada rezeki untuk susukan hadif sampai umur 2 tahun. kalau lebih dari 2 tahun pun lagi bersyukur. amin insyaAllah

so below are some photos that I wish to share with you readers. saya dengan suami sangat2 berpuas hati dengan hasil kerja gambar2 dekat bawah ni. banyak orang cakap hadif muka macam anak mat saleh. hehe. yeke auntie2 and uncle2? tapi rambut hadif gelap and mata hadif colour brown je, bukan light blue. haha. apa2 pun, terima kasih untuk semua yang memuji dan mendoakan yang baik2 buat Hadif Sufian :') semoga Allah membalas segala kebaikan untuk semua orang yang mendoakan

and today, June 27th, little hadif is 1 month old. alhamdulillah, ya Allah. terima kasih atas rezeki zuriat kepada kami berdua. masyaAllah, he's such a wonderful baby. senang jaga hadif, anak yang tak susahkan mummy dan daddy. hadif nagis bila nak susu, bila tak selesa diaper penuh, bila nak orang cuddle and dukung. apart from that, hadif baik sahaja, pandai tidur sendiri and usually bila bangun dari tidur hadif observe sekeliling. hadif anak soleh mummy dan daddy. insyaAllah. 

A Letter For You

To our dearest Hadif Sufian,

Happy 1-month old, our little bundle of joy 💙

You have taught us so many things in just 4 weeks of your life. We learn about love, happiness, patience, responsibilities and so much more that we couldn't even tell.
You bring us more than a life, you wonderful son-shine.

Dulu2 masa mummy and daddy baru kahwin, kami berdua ingat hidup kami sudah cukup sempurna when we have one another. Tapi bila Hadif Sufian lahir, now we realised that awaklah penyeri hidup kami berdua. Hadif yang menyempurnakan kehidupan mummy and daddy :')

We wish you nothing but to grow up to be a fine man. To know between what's right and what's wrong, to be kind to others and have courage in everything you're going to do.
We both will always hold your back, making sure that you won't fall and with that, you know;
you're having 2 persons in this world that will love you for who you are.

Fly up above the clouds, our dearest son.
Fly up as high as you wish.
But forget not the others when you could see the world from up there.

With so much (endless) love 💙,
Mummy and Daddy